Monday, February 2, 2009

Today

Today. Today is a new day. Yesterday I felt a little better than the day before. The day before that was terrible. I have been so mad about life's unpleasantness. I have basically been mad that I have to live in such a tiny house with so many people. What did I do to deserve having to stay here, with no room to move, no playroom for the kids' toys, no closet space to store the hand-me-down clothes that the kids will wear "someday".
Then something happened. I had been feeling really sorry for myself for like a week! I prayed, I got tired of praying, I prayed more, I got furious about having to pray for so long for something I want. That something that happened was that I listened. I listened to what God had to say on the subject.
"Be still and know that I am God." This is the second time in my life that He has said that to me. The last time he said it, he brought my wonderful, precious husband to me. And I know that this time when I wait, he will bring me just what we need. He loves me and He has always taken care of me.

1 comment:

caglebagel said...

I'm glad God gave you a reassuring word. Also remember that it well be better if the little kids are a older when you get a new house. It really hurts to work so hard for something & wacth your kids destroy it by coloring on the walls, knocking holes in the wall & spilling things on the carpet. Hopefully, by waiting you can avoid some of those things!